bLuE mOoNLiGhT tONiGhT

tired

2005-09-28T07:25:00.000-07:00

End Of Year! i am dead ... wah alot of things to be done........ can i have break? i am going suffocate by all the subjects, tests exams assignments... wad the teachers treat us like ? machines? chiong ba....... but dun chiong until u fall down in the race...
hmm... listening to tu ran lei le .... and wo de cuo..... sad songs la..... dun knoe why la..... hmm...... tired....... well recently keep like getting angry with jq ba.. but then he keep making me happy when he finds out i am upset .... some problems are sorted out probably? i seems like really tu ran lei le no mood to study AT ALL! ok .... well bad week or rather bad month ......hey callin people who wants to go for chalet tell me ok?

y u come again

2005-09-24T08:03:00.000-07:00

when i forget u yet appear in front of me again ............ can u just leave ....... ck pls leave leave!
well ....... today went out with dear....have a great time so touched that dear change becos me... thx dear u rox my life

becos of him

2005-09-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

becos of him.......
i began to cry alot
began to be more mature
began to be more understanding
began to know more about life and love
he is the onli one i realli love in my heart
the one i wanted to grow old wif
i felt happiness
i am happy
i love u
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seems to be stressing myself too much like wad dear said .... he is the onli one i can realli talk to ..... thx dear......the whole day of stress is torturing me........ i am useless.......... cos i am a perfectionist....... hmm decided to change myself shall i ?

over...

2005-09-16T08:22:00.000-07:00

hmm... now zi wei and i ok le...... maybe its a right choice to step a step back .............finalli my oral presentation is over....... sianz........here comes e end yr le........ tiring.........water~ someone keep forcing me drink wate rfor my own good......... hungry now......... er.......... haha..... quite happi to haf a new friend then enemy ....... most likely my guides friend will kill me ba ........hehe......... i am not perfect .......
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people are not perfect..........so do i ............ forgive and forget ... make an enemy ur friend

sianz

2005-09-13T05:17:00.000-07:00

well... quite disappointed with myself....... cant manage time well.....stressed and yet not feeling well now......... headache........ dun plan to go for guides tmr........ damn unwell............ non stop working for e week......... hopes i am a superwoman to do everything ba.......i want to chiong but i dun haf the power..............i realli hopes i wun depends on him too much...... i dun want control him too much........... just wait for him online wad for pester him to get online.... let him do wad he wants maybe that will make him more freedom ......looking back....... we past a long way ......... sweet , sour ,bitter, dun knoe wad to say.. i love him alot...... =)... haiz......... i dun want to say anything le....... cos...stressed nt becos of this........... becos of all my work.......... i tend to force myself to be the best.......... can i be able to squeese into top 3? i hope so ba......... zw forgave me...... i felt better ......... maybe thats wad i shld do ba.......... tired ..........8.28pm feel like sleeping again.............
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Plan ahead ........ chiong my way

Harsh words

2005-09-12T05:02:00.000-07:00

Well... hmm.. recently seems like i haf harm lots of ppl with my harsh wordsi think i shld apologise.... i am sorry.... esp gor and dear.. well... words that said cannot be eaten back ... no pt...... i dint meant to spoke harsh words but...... i realli carnt control myself ........... recently very bad tempered indeed..... when u just speak some words i may scold u .... also said that i wn care abt u or maybe i even given up on myself......... I am realli sorry i noe i shld change my attitude ... give me time ........... i believe i can..........dear... sorry i hurt u once and once again .. i nearly gave myself up but thanks for not giving me up=)
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monday blue~ i hate mondays esp sunny ones..... so sianz......... 5 more days to weekends again end yr exam coming stressed bad tempered evry thing over comin me ... dear jia you wor.... muackies......... gor also jia you for prelim .... evry1 jia you for end yr exam

Another Blow

2005-09-08T03:35:00.000-07:00

Tired~ Emotionally tired~ another blow... i dun think i can stand it for long... im ight break down soon ba...... well quite glad to haf jackson keep toking to me..... he make me laugh ......haha but i am still tired....... aargh..... sianz.....
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emotionally tired~

things ahead

2005-09-08T01:09:00.000-07:00

today is ??today is 8/9/05....well was kinda snadwiched between somethings ....why recently keep having troubles...wondering how long could i stand i might break down any time any pt in time.... maybe i shld believe jie ...gor is just rash but he is worried abt me.. maybe thats the truth ..... wad shld i say now...... think i haf to cool down before i do any decision i realli wish that i could sit down and talk to gor and knoe more abt him........ i dun want to make more trouble betwen gor jq and me..... i need tolook from the other side of the problem..... hope that helps
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~believe in urself and make clear decision ... look at another side of the problem u might find the answer u want~

6/9

2005-09-07T01:49:00.000-07:00

hmm... nothing to say cos written the same thing on another blog ... i am writing on ytd thingy... i think i haf been much unreasonable recently ..... making alot of unreasonable request to him or maybe keep getting quarrels wif him... i dint want to ba but carnt help it.... just walk past a huge obstacle ... hope both of us are that strong again..... nearly becos of this we end but luckily not.... it felt so terrible... hehe.... now ok le...... and he promised to help me throw away ck's thing.... yo! no more worries...... well planning to ask charlene to be my gan jie and wenxiang be gan gor.... dun knoe la they seems to be in bad terms well wish them to be ok ba... hehe..... tired out recently .... dun like to do anything actualli...... today went to sch... today! tody is 7/9...went sch for lit alittle to sianz le..... saw Mr ong he came to check on us yea? hehe.....then go kfc buy my lunch back home........ going get heat stroke sho hot..... and i am so bored now ew........ all so busy cannot tok to me.... suan le........ hehe.. wonder how he looks like in his new spects... well.. i told myself to be more understanding recently ba...... hehe..... jia you wor.... thinking of wad to do for him during his 'o'lvl

2day 3/9

2005-09-03T23:27:00.000-07:00

o crap...losing concentration jus cre8ted a blank page...nvm aniway 2day woke up bloody early to take report...tired...but still ok took 1 hr nap and quickly go tuition..yawns and yawns....after tt go meet dear to go wif her to celebrate her bro's bday at marche...food was great feel paiseh jus go there and eat lyk tt...haf 2 do sth for her family liao den after tt drum but cos ppl around i tink i piss wx off...hope he and her can both get over it...well...den send dear home while i losing concentration at extreme rate when i can go up the bus widout tapping ez link....sian..nvm aniway gtg

get lost

2005-09-03T08:27:00.001-07:00

i hate to be myself... why u keep appearing in my mind ? can u just get lost? i hate u ! stop getting in my memories and keep pressing refresh.... i hate u ! get lost! i hate seeing ur bear ur letters ur cards ur face ur fotos ! get lost! ck get lost!
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hmm... updating my blog at 11 33 nice number eh? well hate remembering him...get lost eh... dear ... give me sometime i will forget him even i go dhoby ... =) dear gave me a dog as a gift a soft toy...that can put tissue inside and pull the tissue when u need e tissue... hope it cures my drooling then crying=) having headache ... sianz ... ya dear is correct i am a person that ask ppl go sleep yet i dun knoe what time to sleep... recently keep throw temper... glad dear got a good temper and lots of patience to hoax me eh... thx.... haha... mr teo ... be happi dun cry u rox will miss u lots =) shld end here 11 36 i completed it smileeee

2005-09-03T00:03:00.000-07:00

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2005-09-03T00:00:00.000-07:00

hmm... just ate a panadol down... hmm... headache~ realli unwell ~ hmm.. meeting him later .. one week passed isnt it... tough week indeed... trying to stop myself from slping cos i am turning into a xiao zhu le hmm.. buai

nah

2005-09-01T02:08:00.000-07:00

well a new beginning for me ... hope when i delete all the messages that was left behind in this blog... i wun remember you at all yeap i received ur letter i found my happiness i wanted to throw ur letter ur foto ur bear and everything out yet i dint ... i hope u will be happy after u leave me find ur happiness ba..thx for the memories...the above message for ck...
Yea just moved my blog sianz ... lazy la.... hehe i miss dear... he still not online yet ...trying to wait patiently eh... =) i love dear he rox.... haha i stone and yea i am stoning ok? haha...