Wednesday, September 28, 2005
End Of Year! i am dead ... wah alot of things to be done........ can i have break? i am going suffocate by all the subjects, tests exams assignments... wad the teachers treat us like ? machines? chiong ba....... but dun chiong until u fall down in the race...
hmm... listening to tu ran lei le .... and wo de cuo..... sad songs la..... dun knoe why la..... hmm...... tired....... well recently keep like getting angry with jq ba.. but then he keep making me happy when he finds out i am upset .... some problems are sorted out probably? i seems like really tu ran lei le no mood to study AT ALL! ok .... well bad week or rather bad month ......hey callin people who wants to go for chalet tell me ok?
memoriies.. [[ 7:25 AM ]]
happii or sadd. its still parrt of moii memoriies..love ya
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Saturday, September 24, 2005
when i forget u yet appear in front of me again ............ can u just leave ....... ck pls leave leave!
well ....... today went out with dear....have a great time so touched that dear change becos me... thx dear u rox my life
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Monday, September 19, 2005
becos of him.......
i began to cry alot
began to be more mature
began to be more understanding
began to know more about life and love
he is the onli one i realli love in my heart
the one i wanted to grow old wif
i felt happiness
i am happy
i love u
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seems to be stressing myself too much like wad dear said .... he is the onli one i can realli talk to ..... thx dear......the whole day of stress is torturing me........ i am useless.......... cos i am a perfectionist....... hmm decided to change myself shall i ?
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Friday, September 16, 2005
hmm... now zi wei and i ok le...... maybe its a right choice to step a step back .............finalli my oral presentation is over....... sianz........here comes e end yr le........ tiring.........water~ someone keep forcing me drink wate rfor my own good......... hungry now......... er.......... haha..... quite happi to haf a new friend then enemy ....... most likely my guides friend will kill me ba ........hehe......... i am not perfect .......
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people are not perfect..........so do i ............ forgive and forget ... make an enemy ur friend
memoriies.. [[ 8:22 AM ]]
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005
well... quite disappointed with myself....... cant manage time well.....stressed and yet not feeling well now......... headache........ dun plan to go for guides tmr........ damn unwell............ non stop working for e week......... hopes i am a superwoman to do everything ba.......i want to chiong but i dun haf the power..............i realli hopes i wun depends on him too much...... i dun want control him too much........... just wait for him online wad for pester him to get online.... let him do wad he wants maybe that will make him more freedom ......looking back....... we past a long way ......... sweet , sour ,bitter, dun knoe wad to say.. i love him alot...... =)... haiz......... i dun want to say anything le....... cos...stressed nt becos of this........... becos of all my work.......... i tend to force myself to be the best.......... can i be able to squeese into top 3? i hope so ba......... zw forgave me...... i felt better ......... maybe thats wad i shld do ba.......... tired ..........8.28pm feel like sleeping again.............
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Plan ahead ........ chiong my way
memoriies.. [[ 5:17 AM ]]
happii or sadd. its still parrt of moii memoriies..love ya
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Monday, September 12, 2005
Well... hmm.. recently seems like i haf harm lots of ppl with my harsh wordsi think i shld apologise.... i am sorry.... esp gor and dear.. well... words that said cannot be eaten back ... no pt...... i dint meant to spoke harsh words but...... i realli carnt control myself ........... recently very bad tempered indeed..... when u just speak some words i may scold u .... also said that i wn care abt u or maybe i even given up on myself......... I am realli sorry i noe i shld change my attitude ... give me time ........... i believe i can..........dear... sorry i hurt u once and once again .. i nearly gave myself up but thanks for not giving me up=)
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monday blue~ i hate mondays esp sunny ones..... so sianz......... 5 more days to weekends again end yr exam coming stressed bad tempered evry thing over comin me ... dear jia you wor.... muackies......... gor also jia you for prelim .... evry1 jia you for end yr exam
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Thursday, September 08, 2005
Tired~ Emotionally tired~ another blow... i dun think i can stand it for long... im ight break down soon ba...... well quite glad to haf jackson keep toking to me..... he make me laugh ......haha but i am still tired....... aargh..... sianz.....
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emotionally tired~
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today is ??today is 8/9/05....well was kinda snadwiched between somethings ....why recently keep having troubles...wondering how long could i stand i might break down any time any pt in time.... maybe i shld believe jie ...gor is just rash but he is worried abt me.. maybe thats the truth ..... wad shld i say now...... think i haf to cool down before i do any decision i realli wish that i could sit down and talk to gor and knoe more abt him........ i dun want to make more trouble betwen gor jq and me..... i need tolook from the other side of the problem..... hope that helps
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~believe in urself and make clear decision ... look at another side of the problem u might find the answer u want~
memoriies.. [[ 1:09 AM ]]
happii or sadd. its still parrt of moii memoriies..love ya
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